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  When I reached the edge of the yard and the end of the woods, I could plainly see the front of the house. The interior of the house was dark, and the only illumination of the exterior was provided by a security light near the garage. The garage doors were closed. In front of them, I recognized Maddox’s dusty-rose Lincoln. Parked beside it was a car I didn’t recognize: a gray Toyota Tercel.

  From where the yard began to the porch where Captain Skipper and the inmate stood was a hundred feet. Skipper looked frustrated and angry as he continued banging on the imposing solid oak door with no response. From the distance that separated us, it took the sound of the knock about a second to travel to my ears. The inmate, who was in his prison uniform, looked from the back like nearly every other average-height, average-weight white inmate. Something, possibly the Holy Spirit-she speaks to me on the odd occasion-told me it was Anthony Thomas.

  After about five minutes of banging on the door of the dark house, Skipper and the inmate turned to leave. When they did, I saw that it was indeed Anthony Thomas, which meant that it must have indeed been the Holy Spirit. Thomas walked like a drunk man.

  Skipper helped him into the van and then jumped in himself. In another few seconds, the ignition started, the lights came on, and the van began to turn around in the massive driveway. I glanced at my watch. It was one forty-six.

  I ran toward the Explorer, though not as quickly as I could have, remembering the tree my shin had kissed on the way to the house. I was running for two reasons: one, I wanted to follow the van; and two, if the captain turned left out of the driveway, he would pass the Explorer, which might make him suspicious.

  And, if he was doing all of the things I thought he was doing, then he had good reason to be suspicious. It took me three minutes to reach the Explorer-far longer than Skipper needed to reach the end of the driveway. I paused at the edge of the woods to see if Skipper was passing by. I saw no sign of him. I heard nothing. I jumped in the Explorer, turned it around and drove back the way he had come.

  He was gone.

  Chapter 25

  Rarely is witnessing an event, even an event that was supposed to be secret, as revelatory as it seems at the time it is witnessed. People who have witnessed plane crashes, automobile accidents, even assassinations, often know little more than those who were not there at all. I had seen Skipper take Thomas to Maddox’s house last night and I had no idea what it meant. I had seen one isolated incident out of context. Of the several things it could mean, I had no way of knowing what it actually meant.

  Under the clear blue skies that had appeared again when the sun rose Sunday morning, I was returning Dad’s Explorer. He lived about fifteen minutes from me on a secluded five-acre farm. I tried to enjoy and appreciate the beautiful creations all around me as well as interact with the creator, but I could think of little else besides the events of the preceding night. I thought maybe I should tell Dad what was going on, but then again, I thought I probably should find out what was going on first. It seemed reasonable.

  As I rounded the last curve and put my left blinker on, preparing to turn into Dad’s driveway, the phone rang. At first I didn’t know what it was. I thought maybe a bird had somehow gotten in the vehicle, because of the chirping sound. After the third ring, I deduced that it was a car phone-I’m nothing if not quick. I answered it as I came to a stop in front of my Dad’s little red farm house.

  “Hello,” I said into the small phone.

  “John,” Dad said, “we need to talk. How long will take you to get over here?”

  “Not long,” I said.

  “Well, that’s too long. Come as quick as you can.”

  “Sure, Dad, I’ll be right there,” I said.

  I hung up the phone, got out of the car, and walked over and knocked on the front door.

  He looked puzzled when he opened the door. He was wearing a red flannel shirt and a pair of blue jeans that were no longer very blue. His white tube socks matched his jeans-his laundry skills had never been his strong suit. His salt-and-pepper hair, which was receding only slightly, looked to have not seen a brush this morning. His brown eyes, which almost always looked sad, looked especially sad today.

  “How the hell did you get here so fast?” he asked.

  “I was in your driveway when you called. I’m returning your truck. It made the trip to Tallahassee seem like a vacation. Thanks.”

  “You’re welcome. Come in. We need to talk,” he said as he turned and walked down the short hallway that led to his den.

  His den was actually a great room with very little furniture, the first clue that this was a bachelor’s pad. There was a large stacked-stone fireplace on the back wall, which we faced as we entered the room. It had an unvarnished wood hearth that was filled with pictures and marksman trophies. Above the fireplace on the dark paneling wall, the head of a large elk was mounted. On the other wall to the left, where the TV sat on a built-in shelf, hung other animal heads-deer, bear, boar, and moose. Dad was a real man’s man. I was a real disappointment to him in this regard.

  He took a seat in an old gray recliner that was positioned in front of the TV. It creaked when he plopped down in it. The only other place to sit was a dark gray couch in front of the wall opposite the fireplace, but to sit there was to sit behind him, so I stood.

  The house smelled as it always smelled-dusty, slightly mildewed, and like a pack of wild dogs lived there. The pack-of-wilddogs smell came from Wallace, an Irish setter who was currently occupying the couch-another reason I stood.

  I glanced over my shoulder toward the kitchen, where I could see food on the small yellow table and dishes piled in the sink, a look not unfamiliar to me. I looked back at Dad. He was staring at the TV, which showed two boxers-a white one and a black one. The black one was being cruel and unusually punishing to the white one. Dad leaned forward slightly as if to hear what the announcers were saying, but the sound was muted.

  “Dad, you okay?” I asked. He was always quiet, but now he seemed depressed, preoccupied. As always, his expressions and gestures were small and understated. He was the kind of man who would walk not run out of a burning building.

  “Yes, I’m fine, but your mother’s not,” he said without his usual disgust when she was the topic of conversation.

  They were divorced when I was fourteen, when her drinking had progressed to the point that it was no longer safe to leave my brother and me with her. He divorced her after almost eighteen years and about a million second chances. The patience of Job comes to mind. It was at this time that my sister Nancy divorced herself from our entire family and moved to Chicago. My brother Jake and I lived with Dad until, at seventeen, I started drinking, at which time I lived with Mom for a short time. It was during that time that I discovered that I didn’t like her any better when I was drunk.

  “I know that,” I said. “I’ve never seen her when she was fine. Why are you telling me what I know so well?”

  “She needs someone, and it needs to be you,” he said, only looking away from the boxing and up at me momentarily.

  “Dad, we’ve been over this. I’m a recovering alcoholic. That comes first. I have a difficult enough time staying sober myself. I cannot keep her sober as well. I’m sorry, but I’m not responsible for her sobriety, and I do not hold her responsible for mine.”

  “I’m not asking you to keep her sober,” he said, his voice cracking a little. “I’m asking you to comfort her. She’s dying, John.”

  “She’s not dying,” I said. “She’s manipulating you, Dad.”

  “No,” he said. “It’s not like before. She really is dying. I talked to her doctor. She has cirrhosis of the liver and kidney failure. She won’t last long.”

  “What?” I asked in shock, waves of guilt beginning to roll over me.

  “She’s dying,” he whispered. “She doesn’t have too much longer, though the doctor doesn’t know for sure how long.”

  God forgive me, I’m a heartless son. She was reaching out for me on the pho
ne the other night, and I was so hateful to her.

  “Are you sure?” I asked again. “She called me the other night, but she sounded drunk, not sick.”

  “It’s her medication. She’s in the hospital. It makes her sound drunk, but she’s really not.”

  “I can’t believe it,” I said. “I was so mean to her. She’s dying.”

  Suddenly my dad stood up. He was still an imposing man, with a large frame that was agile for his age.

  “Listen to me, Son,” he said forcefully. “You are not to feel guilty for the other night. She told me what happened, but I told her that it was her fault. She’s cried wolf too many times for any of us to believe her. Hell, I wouldn’t have believed her if I hadn’t talked to the doctor. It’s not your fault, understand?”

  That was a classic Jack Jordan statement. He said I was not to feel guilty, so that was that-I was not to feel guilty, as if I could just turn it off. However, it was classic also because he did his best to make sure that Jake and I were not manipulated by her when we were kids. He said not to feel guilty, and I didn’t, and that’s what bothered me the most. I felt guilty in my head. I knew I had been too harsh on the phone the other night. But in my heart I felt no guilt. I felt nothing.

  “She needs someone right now,” Dad said, “and that can’t be me. Jake’s not cut out for it, and the only thing Nancy’s going to do is dance when she’s dead. It can only be you. You’re a minister, for God’s sake.”

  “Yeah, I’m a minister. And, I would find it easier to minister to anyone in this world other than her.”

  “You can’t do it?” he asked.

  “I am going to do it,” I said. “I just question how effective it will be.”

  “You’ll do great, Son. You’ve got a gift. Now, sit down here, and let’s watch some boxing.” I knew he would say no more about Mom.

  “I’ve got to go, Dad. I’ve got a service to do at the prison. Sorry.”

  “That’s okay. By the way, how’s the investigation going?”

  “Barely going at all, I think, but it’s hard to tell. You can go along and think you’ve got nothing, and then you’ve got everything. Who knows?”

  “Well, you keep me posted. This is still my county.” “I will, Dad,” I said. “And, about Mom, too.” “Yeah, thanks,” he said but his mind was back on boxing.

  Chapter 26

  “I know of no other way to put this,” I said, “so I am just going to come out and say it.”

  “Okay,” Jasper said as he nodded his head up and down. He was as big an inmate as we had on the compound-well over six and a half feet tall and well over two hundred eighty pounds. He had skin the color of Tupelo honey and teeth to match. His hair was always unruly, and his two front teeth were separated by nearly a quarter of an inch, causing him to look like a black David Letterman.

  “I hear that you’re one of the main suppliers of drugs on the compound.”

  We were seated in my office in the chapel on Sunday morning around ten. My eyes stung, and I spoke, as best I could, between yawns. I needed some rest. I needed some sleep. I also needed to know if I had the AIDS virus floating around in my blood.

  It was less than an hour until the service, and the sounds of the choir rehearsing could be heard from within the chapel sanctuary. The song they were rehearsing for today’s service was “Power in the Blood.” If Jasper Evans were dealing drugs, then I wanted him to deal himself out of that choir.

  Would you be free from the burden of sin? There’s power in the blood, power in the blood; Would you o’er evil a victory win? There’s wonderful power in the blood.

  I was anxious to get the conversation over because when I had arrived at my office, I had discovered in my mail another letter from the killer. I was dying to read the letter, but I had to wait until I was alone.

  Since he didn’t answer, I asked him again, “Are you?”

  There is power, power, wonder-working power in the blood of the lamb. There is power, power, wonder-working power in the precious blood of the lamb.

  He continued to look as if I had asked him to explain to me the theory of relativity. Finally, he shrugged, tilted his head to the left, and made an expression that said, What can I say?

  He didn’t seem overly concerned that I knew.

  “How long has this been going on?” I asked.

  “A while,” he said.

  “And you saw no conflict between what you’re doing and being our minister of music?”

  “Two different things. I know that doing dope is a sin, but I don’t do it. And I only sell the small stuff. I don’t sell no crack or shit like that. But, Brother Chaplain, I love to sing in the choir.”

  Would you be free from your passion and pride? There’s power in the blood, power in the blood. Come for a cleansing to Calvary’s tide? There’s wonderful power in the blood.

  “I know you do, and you are very good. In fact, I don’t know what I am going to do without you, but you must realize that I can no longer allow you to lead the choir.”

  “I got to sing,” he said emphatically as if he were saying, I’ve got to breathe.

  “Certainly you can sing, but not in the choir and especially not as the choir leader.”

  “Why not?” he asked.

  “As a leader you take on more responsibility and accountability to the group, not to mention God. You have to attempt to live in such a way as not to bring reproach on the Body of Christ.”

  “That what you do?” he asked.

  “I certainly do the attempting part, but I do not succeed.”

  “How you can be the chaplain then?”

  “The requirements do not involve being perfect.”

  Through my window I could see the inmates fortunate enough to receive a visit from their loved ones in the fenced-in visiting park. Couples walked around the yard holding hands, families sat at tables eating ice cream, children ran and played-remove the chain-link fence and razor wire, and you’d have an average Sunday afternoon in any park in America.

  “But you say you don’t do it,” he said, trying to understand.

  Would you do service to Jesus your King? There’s power in the blood, power in the blood. Would you live daily his praises to sing? There’s wonderful power in the blood.

  “Yeah, but I’m not out doing illegal things either. I mean, I am not as mature or integrated in most areas of my life as I want to be, but I’m not doing anything illegal or even immoral. That’s the difference.”

  We were silent for a moment. “You say you don’t sell the hard stuff?” I asked.

  “That’s right,” he said with pride.

  “Who does?”

  “Don’t nobody on the ’pound. It’s too hard to get, too much trouble. Not many inmates can afford it anyway.”

  “Are you saying that there is no crack on the compound?”

  “None that I know of. And I’d know. When it come to drugs, I the man,” he said defiantly. Then he realized whom he was talking to.

  “Did you know Ike Johnson?”

  “Knew of him.”

  “What can you tell me about him?”

  “He was taken care of.”

  “What do you mean?”

  Jasper rolled his eyes in exasperation over having to explain so much to this naive chaplain.

  “Somebody took care of him. But it wasn’t no inmate. It had to be an officer. He do whatever the hell he want. He get high every day, and he stopped getting it from me a long time ago.”

  “Is there another inmate he could have gotten it from?”

  “No.”

  “How do you get the drugs that you sell?”

  “Can’t say, sir. Get lotsa people in trouble. People that can give me a world of trouble if they want to.”

  “So you’re saying that it comes from the staff?”

  “I ain’t saying.”

  “Okay. If you think of anything else you can tell me about the drug trade inside here, I would sure like to know. You coming to church
this morning?”

  “Am I going to be singing?”

  “No,” I said.

  “No,” he said.

  There is power, power, wonder-working power in the blood of the lamb. There is power, power, wonder-working power in the precious blood of the lamb.

  As soon as he left, I tore open the letter. “Chaplain, I not going to tell you again. This is your last warning. I will kill the bitch if you don’t back off. I’ll kill you too. It’s going to hurt. Leave Molly Thomas alone, too. Nothing but trouble there. Now’s a good time to take some time off.”

  I read and reread it several times. Maybe the letter wasn’t from the murderer. It could be from a witness or about something that was totally unrelated. I wondered if Anna was in any real danger. I thought about taking more precautions, and, as it turned out, I should have.

  “Today we are here to receive the holy Eucharist,” I said, beginning my Sunday morning chapel communion service. All week I had been thinking, even obsessing, on the power of blood. I was interested in seeing how it would affect what I was going to say.

  “We are here to eat the body and to drink the blood of Christ. On the night of the feast of the Passover, Jesus revealed to his disciples that he was about to become their Passover. His blood would be shed for an entirely new Passover. This was, of course, very familiar to them. Their minds raced back to the time when the people of their great nation were little more than a band of slaves in Egypt. Daily they cried out to God for deliverance. God answered them after four hundred years-for God is never in a hurry. God’s answer came in the form of a deliverer.

  “God’s unlikely deliverer was a Hebrew shepherd who had been wandering in the wilderness for forty years. His name was Moses, and his mission was to go and tell the pharaoh that God said, “Let my people go.” He did. Pharaoh, however, was resistant to this idea, so God sent plagues, each one an affront to the gods of the Egyptians. Pharaoh, however, continued to resist.

  “So it was that on the Hebrews’ final night as Egyptian slaves, God sent a death angel to kill the firstborn of every family. This would be the final straw that would break the back of the pharaoh, and he would then indeed let God’s people go. God’s instructions to the Hebrews were for each family to sacrifice a lamb and smear his shed blood over their doors. Thus, seeing the blood, the death angel would pass over and allow their firstborn to live. Because of the blood, the death angel passed over-only because of the blood.